One thing I can tell you is that I started this blog out of my love for fitness, progress and being healthy. I stopped writing as I had lost it, lost that love that consumed me for so long and pushed me to succeed. I grew disheartened by the politics of the game that is competing, disheartened by the flood of motivational images that no longer succeeded in their purpose and disheartened by my own progress. On reflection, 2013 was a difficult year for me personally, I lost that uncontrollable lust to be ripped, to do no matter what it took to get there, to work hard, to succeed, to be great. It was a year where I allowed stress to take over me, like a dark cloud that just wouldn’t disappear. I let myself feel lonely, feel unhappy, feel unmotivated and it resulted in very little good. I now realise you can control how you respond to situations, you can control if you want to feel stressed or relaxed, happy or sad. I truly believe that it is the way we handle difficulties that affect our happiness, it is not what we have or what we are given but is simply making the choice to be happy regardless of what you face.
The start of a new year holds so many possibilities. I suppose that’s why everyone choses to make resolutions, whether it be just a dream or a goal that will turn into reality. While new years resolutions rarely last, there is something so wonderful about a fresh start, fresh goals and fresh hope. You can chose whether to take this opportunity to change something in your life, to push yourself, to do something you’ve always wanted, or you can decide to be unhappy in the knowledge that you never persevered or even tried to reach your goal.
Already this year I have moved house, moved counties and got a new job in a new gym. I have decided that things are on the up and that I will smash some shit up.
I’m not going back to writing, I am starting anew. I am not the same girl who wrote to you before, I am stronger, more experienced and more empowered. I am preparing for my first show of the year, my big return to the stage after a year off. I am excited to write again, to compete again and to love again. Let’s reignite this love affair and get back on the horse.
Expect all sorts of shenanigans, knowledge and the odd picture of my progress. Here’s to a new beginnings!